I just wish i could curl up in someones arms right now and cry my eyes out then sleep away. but then i remember i have no one and no one cares so im left alone crying my eyes out in the my room left alone with myself to do the darkest of things.. i often wonder who would care if i parished. it seems like no one would maybe thats a choice i have
heey, you can talk to me if you would like :)
(: thank you. Bleh. I don’t even know where to begin..
That moment when you cut on top of healing cuts and both cuts itch and you itch them and reopens fresh cuts
Bad week rant
This week was honestly so terrible. First my bad week starts on sunday when i decide to cuddle with my ex and get old feelings back. Then since i was gone for a while from school i had tons of make-up work. Plus i was still shaky from the music trip :/ Then my ex had to do shit and uncomfrotable so i relapsed. Now i have SAT’s in the morning that im not prepared for and i also have my ap psych exam to take on monday and im even less prepared for that :/ I’m just so exhausted. :/
2419) I’ve messed up my jaw from all the gum I chew to keep myself from eating. My doctor’s have told me to stop chewing gum but I would rather have a demented jaw than be fat.
People ask, what is you hate about yourself?
This. I hate myself because I can do this to myself and get pleasure from it.
It makes me sick - the blood everywhere,it gets all over your hands under your nails, the metallic smell, the burning when you try and clean the cuts.
And all that left in the end is a little red scar
P.s excuse my fat arms in this photo..and my pink pjs >.<3
